bittersweet memories
It's Friday at work, and I can't seem to concentrate. I withhold myself everyday from calling you and sitting up on the roof at work. However, it was too nice outside and I'm feeling stronger since last talking to you. Oh how I was wrong. I know I think too much. I know I think about you too much still. Sitting on the roof reminds me of last summer...the best summer I ever had. It reminds me of how we used to talk for endless hours during work. It reminds me how I look forward to seeing you after work. I'm not gonna lie but I still wait till you call me saying that we should be together again. Perhaps I need to let go...I just need some answers. I don't wanna play games anymore.
the truth
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
"Behind these Hazel Eyes"- Kelly Clarkson
fate
i suppose i started this blogger after realizing that perhaps one day that special someone will come across this someday, and perhaps realize all the feelings and thoughts that i secretly held on to for so long. So much time has passed and not much has changed. I watch the clock tick away hoping for a better day. Hoping that someday everything will return back to the way it was before...before it all used to make sense. So if you were to read this, then maybe everything happens for a reason...and it was meant to be. I believe in fate, and also the decisions a person makes to guide their destiny.
"It's hard to say"- The Used
My worries weight the world how i used to be
And everything (im cold) seems a plague in me
And it's hard to say how i feel today
For years gone by, and i cried
It's hard to say that i was wrong
It's hard to say i miss you
Since you've been gone it's not the same
It's hard to say i held my tongue
It's hard to say if only
Since you've been gone it's not the same
Worse than the fear it's the lie you told a thousand times before
