everything happens for a reason...

relationships

What have I become? Maybe I am just curious of how you are doing in your life. I made it this far but somehow tonight was different....as I was lying in bed listening to my music avoiding all "our songs" I still thought of you. Something felt empty and incomplete...I miss Brianpat Bear in my arms while I fall asleep. It made me even sadder seeing him in a picture next to another girl. Am I really replaced already? Cause I feel like even though I dont think of you as much and even though I finally got the courage to avoid you as just being "friends", I still miss you and care about you. Why is it that some people are so selfish? Honestly, if one person loves another person so much...there are sacrifices worth making in a relationship. The hardest path is usually the right path. I believe that relationships, the best ones, takes time and effort. It takes a lot of patience but its worth it in the end. Only the weak ones would give up when they hit an obstacle along the way. Or even worse, run from the one thing that they know that there heart is yearning for. I definitely learned a lot from this relationship. I am not sure what I am still holding onto cause sometimes I think its completely over. However, this is a small world that we live in and I fear the day that I run into you and I will be weak again. I dont really understand relationships...or maybe I just didn't understand you. Obviously, you loved yourself more than me. This was a short path that we traveled together. I try to think about all the good times that we had but that only makes me cry. Then I think about how much I was hurt, and that could leave me crying or being stronger. I hope someday I find something good cause I don't want to be hurt again. Maybe you were my first true love. Or how else can I explain this. One thing is for sure...my blog wasn't found and no effort was made for things to be fixed. Ok this is complete rambling.....it is the truth and feelings shown for awhile. well my screen name is forever as secret......thats all I hide